We all go through a lot of phases in life, and we tend to ignore our mental health because, for us, everything is physical health, right? We don’t realize things until it becomes a disorder, although people do recognize it at an early stage, and that’s great, but the ones who ignore their mental health tend to suffer more and more, and most of the time silently. This is a free verse that talks about what these mental health issues make me do and make most of us come forward and speak, and some just want to show that they are strong enough to handle things.
It’s okay I accept you!
And here am I
Sitting with my thoughts all alone
Drowning in them even though
I know I might not make it till the end
This weight of anxiety, depression, and borderline personality disorder
Weighs me down and drowns me in panic attacks and anxiety attacks
It pulls me down, showing me my reality whenever I try to escape
Poor me, struggling with it each and every day
Hence, it’s a part of who I am
My flaws are my anxiety and panic attacks
And the funniest thing?
They don’t give a damn where I am
The moment I feel the rush of adrenaline
I know I can’t “fly” therefore I have to fight
I am not scared of you anymore
Not trying to escape from reality anymore.
But I also know one more thing: the moment I hurt myself
And hit myself into the mirror or make cuts on my hand, that’s the moment of satisfaction
Yeah, hurray!
I am doing the exact same thing that you want me to do
I’ll hurt myself every day but I won’t consult a psychiatrist
Am I screwed or scared? Oh wait, I might be both
I do the exact same thing that you want me to
Why is it still hurting me?
I have learned to keep things to myself
I hurt myself
I let go of people
I don’t talk to anyone, what else do you want?
I moved to a different country
You won’t let me let go of my past
I am in the darkest corner of life.
Fighting every single day just to have smile.Poem by: Diksha Chhikara
